Bad End Part 6 - Never let the pain stop

[goldenglasses]

CW: Noncon, dubcon, gaslighting, violence, imprisonment, confinement, bondage, sex toys, humiliation, body modifications, forced feminization, child death, sex slavery, forced pregnancy, degradation, miscarriages, mental manipulation, drug use, overdose, restraints, violence, torture, monster fucking, and everything awful. I feel I'm forgetting some warning so please be careful if you're reading this as we are going to go very dark.

Things only continue to get worse. Vash continues to spiral and loose himself the more the mind breaking continues. The mages continue to use Cyril like he's nothing but a toy to use and throw away. Yet, any chance they have to have together the love Vash and Cyril share together stays strong. For now that remains unbroken. With every day only getting worse that will continue to be challenged.

Cyril tries to look Vash in the eye. He may be disappointed by the way Vash's eyes drift to the side towards Cyril's shoulder. He tries to do it slowly and not draw attention to it, but as he's looking for it, it will be easy for Cyril to spot.



[name reference:
Chasind Warrior - Enid
Pack Leader - Roderic
Pack Warrior - Hyde
Pack Rogue - Alpin
Right bastard - Shira
Mage Male - Durand
Mage Female - Duclea
Creepy 'Doctor' - Nikolai
French Lady - Elyna
Mage - Arabelle
Mage - Eirk

Elf slave leader: Taenya
Taenya's son: Marikoth
Half-elves: Kythaela and Lierin
Cyril's replacement name: Lyra
Human Slave: Sarah
Master's Friend: Rupert
Two slave boys: Poppet and Honey
Cyril and Marikoth's child: Cassandra
Cyril and Vash's kids: Alex and Soren

The mages
Vash's master: Titus
One into elves: Claudius
Third mage: Aelius
Poppet and Honey's creator: Appius

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[goldenglasses]

"Hm." Vash hums softly. "They were very kind to supply us with these items."

[samahl]

"Of course," Knives agrees, but he doesn't seem really to care.

[goldenglasses]

Once he finishes putting everything away, Vash picks sits down with his sons. Holding them both closely on his laps and humming softly to them.

He wishes Cyril was here. He wishes they were living peacefully together and happy. Without fully realising he's doing it, he begins to resonate with his sons. Not enough to fully activate any of their powers, but a connection is made regardless. One Knives might be able to feel from the three of them.

[samahl]

Knives's back straightens as he watches them. It's so rare for Vash to effortlessly embrace his powers like this.

He's quiet, not wanting to break up the moment, but he seems to drink in every moment he can as he watches.

[goldenglasses]

For a good fifteen minutes, the three are quiet and still. Enjoying a connection that only Plants can share.

Then that influence begins to expand. The boys seeking out more. Their uncle, their father, their sisters. There's only a brief nervous hesitation from Vash. Teetering and wondering if he should stop this, before he let's it happen. Allowing his own twin to join them if he wishes to.

[samahl]

Knives does want it, opening himself up to the boys and his brother. Vash is usually so hesitant to do something like this, and it means something that the boys get him to embrace more of what he is.

[goldenglasses]

Vash remains hesitant as his brother joins. His mind open like this it's harder to hide the distrust he still feels towards Knives. The part of him that still sees him as a threat to the people he cares about.

He does his best to hide it. Focusing more on his sons, but if Knives looks for it he'll see it.

[samahl]

Knives does seem it, and it probably doesn't help that he seems to almost stalk around the edges of the connection, like a predator looking in on a collection of small, delicate animals. At least he's careful to let the boys take as much as they want, though his physical gaze seems to mostly be on Vash.

For a moment, Vash might sense a lot of the emotions that Knives keeps hidden. There's an almost unfathomable level of longing there, deep and dark.

[goldenglasses]

While Vash sees it, he's much more concern about watching his boys as they interact with his brother. Making sure they don't get overwhelmed.

Yet... there is something nice about the want that he can feel from Knives. He knows it's dangerous, but he feels safe right now and he's so tired of fighting. He does let Knives in a bit more. Not much, but more than he's ever allowed in the past.

alrighty i should try to sleep or something....

[samahl]

Knives keeps the connection up, letting himself get a little closer. Then, after a while, I think the boys are getting tired. It didn't help that I ruined their nap. He says it without words, though.

[goldenglasses]

Vash allows Knives get closer. Slowly getting more comfortable the longer his brother shares his mental space, the more comfortable he becomes with it.

Yeah, I think you're right. The boys did seem to be flagging a little. Vash starts to pull back in order to begin putting the twins to bed. "Give me a hand with them?" HE says out loud.

[samahl]

Knives gets up to do just that. Not responding with words, but with his action. He helps to get the boys ready for bed.

[goldenglasses]

Vash helps to settle his kids. Singing them a soft little lullaby. It's a soft tune he picked up from Cyril's people back when they first met. Wanting the boys to experience the elven culture they also come from as much as he can.

He let's the song drift off once he's certain both boys are asleep.

"I should probably get some sleep too." He glances at his brother. "Are you going to sleep at all?" He knows Knives doesn't need nearly as much sleep as he does.

[samahl]

"Hm. Yes. Probably I will tonight," he agrees. He moves to get ready for bed himself. He tries not to focus too much of his attention on Vash as they get ready to sleep and climb into bed.

[goldenglasses]

It doesn't take Vash long to get ready for bed. He nearly doesn't even change. So use to being naked or having only one outfit for so long.

He does change and crawls into bed. Watching his brother a bit nervously. Wondering if he'll be able to lay down in the bed he had been trying to share with Cyril.

[samahl]

Knives is quiet for a moment before he gets into the bed too. "You opened up to the boys effortlessly," he points out gently. "You should do it more. Connect with those around you."

[goldenglasses]

"I've always connected with our family." Vash says in a gentle voice. "I know you don't believe it, but I've never hesitated when our sisters needed me."

[samahl]

"I believe that you think that's what you've done," Knives says after a moment.

[goldenglasses]

Vash is quiet. Knives might sense that Vash wants to say something. To argue against that statement.

He knows that his brother won't hurt his sons. Yet he can't help feeling like someone will if he argues.

In the end he simply says. "Alright."

[samahl]

Knives is queit for a moment. Then, finally, "Do you think you'll be able to open yourself to Lavellan like that?"

[goldenglasses]

A beat. He's pretty sure Knives won't like hearing that he has. "He's a Plant now. We all could."

[samahl]

Knives narrows his eyes. "He's at least a very convincing imitation..."

[goldenglasses]

"Hm." Once again Knives may get that feeling that Vash wants to argue, but doesn't. Staying quiet.

[samahl]

"Say what you're thinking. Or... share it with me."

[goldenglasses]

Once again, Vash hesitates. "You won't like my answer."