Bad End Part 6 - Never let the pain stop

[goldenglasses]

CW: Noncon, dubcon, gaslighting, violence, imprisonment, confinement, bondage, sex toys, humiliation, body modifications, forced feminization, child death, sex slavery, forced pregnancy, degradation, miscarriages, mental manipulation, drug use, overdose, restraints, violence, torture, monster fucking, and everything awful. I feel I'm forgetting some warning so please be careful if you're reading this as we are going to go very dark.

Things only continue to get worse. Vash continues to spiral and loose himself the more the mind breaking continues. The mages continue to use Cyril like he's nothing but a toy to use and throw away. Yet, any chance they have to have together the love Vash and Cyril share together stays strong. For now that remains unbroken. With every day only getting worse that will continue to be challenged.

Cyril tries to look Vash in the eye. He may be disappointed by the way Vash's eyes drift to the side towards Cyril's shoulder. He tries to do it slowly and not draw attention to it, but as he's looking for it, it will be easy for Cyril to spot.



[name reference:
Chasind Warrior - Enid
Pack Leader - Roderic
Pack Warrior - Hyde
Pack Rogue - Alpin
Right bastard - Shira
Mage Male - Durand
Mage Female - Duclea
Creepy 'Doctor' - Nikolai
French Lady - Elyna
Mage - Arabelle
Mage - Eirk

Elf slave leader: Taenya
Taenya's son: Marikoth
Half-elves: Kythaela and Lierin
Cyril's replacement name: Lyra
Human Slave: Sarah
Master's Friend: Rupert
Two slave boys: Poppet and Honey
Cyril and Marikoth's child: Cassandra
Cyril and Vash's kids: Alex and Soren

The mages
Vash's master: Titus
One into elves: Claudius
Third mage: Aelius
Poppet and Honey's creator: Appius

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[goldenglasses]

Then... maybe he was in a rush to get away from Knives. Soren begins to fuss and distracts Vash further who moves to check on him. He seems to just be jealous that his brother was getting more attention than him.

"Thank you. I know that wasn't easy to do."

[samahl]

Knives passes over Alex to Vash and then moves to go get Soren. He shrugs as he moves. "It was needed. You were losing it.

It was pathetic to watch."

[goldenglasses]

"I'm sorry." He glances away in shame.

Cyril might feel Vash trying to reach out to him. Trying to check on him before he's too far out of range.

[samahl]

The moment makes Cyril stop in his tracks. He hurriedly sends out reassurance, trying hard to keep control of his emotions and not leak anything he doesn't want Vash to sense.

He moves more slowly then, feeling agony as he tries to pretend that he's not continuing to flee.

Knives focuses on Soren. "Hn. As long as you're better. You can help get the boys to bed."

[goldenglasses]

Vash doesn't think to doubt Cyril. Trusting him and pulling back a bit more to focus on his sons.

"Thank you, for feeding them. And watching them."

[samahl]

Knives nods and focuses on getting the boys down. He puts Soren down and gets the boys to relax. He focuses on that rather than forcing Vash to talk.

[goldenglasses]

Vash is more than happy not to talk. The only speaking his does is to the boys. Speaking mostly nonsense at them as he gets them ready to lay down. He also doesn't bother to point out that he's skipped dinner. He's not hungry anyway.

[samahl]

Knives doesn't point it out either. He simply gets the boys down and then focuses on getting himself ready for the night. He doesn't seem to hesitate over the idea of resting next to Vash, seemingly forgetting everything about how he tried to get Vash to agree to work out his tension with him.

[goldenglasses]

Vash hasn't forgotten. He hesitates only for a moment, but Knives has only tried to come onto him the once when he was clearly in desperate need. He probably wouldn't do anything now that he's better thanks to Cyril.

He begins to change into his simple pajamas and head to bed. Maybe Knives will choose not to sleep tonight?

[samahl]

Knives gets ready too and gets into bed. But he lies with his back to Vash, facing the wall.

[goldenglasses]

Vash does briefly freeze when his brother comes into bed with him. Although when Knives faces his back to him, he relaxes a bit more again. "Good night, brother."

[samahl]

"Good night," Knives replies. He is very still and quiet from then on.

[goldenglasses]

There's a pause before Vash quietly adds. "And thank you." He doesn't add to it. He'll settle in to sleep if Knives doesn't say anything back. With what he and Cyril talked about playing over in his mind, he'll be able to fall sleep without nightmares for the first time in a long time.

[samahl]

In the morning, sometime after breakfast. The Iron Bull ends up coming to the cabin. He knocks lightly on the door.

When it's answered, he asks if Cyril is around, and claims that he never came back the night before.

[goldenglasses]

Vash makes sure to be the one to answer the door. Telling his brother that it's fine before greeting the Iron Bull. Although his smile drops when he hears Cyril didn't come back.

"He didn't? M-maybe he fell asleep, he told me he was going to do a bit of stargazing before heading back." Although Iron Bull may notice the way Vash's eyes have gone a little unfocused. Already trying to reach out and find Cyril over their connection.

[samahl]

"Fuck," Bull mutters. He pulls away, wanting to head into the woods. "Do you know where?"

When Vash reaches out, he can probably sense that he was correct. Cyril simply fell asleep somewhere in the woods, but he's far enough away that it's hard to reach him.

[goldenglasses]

"...yes..." He sounds as if he's not fully paying attention. Focused on that faint trace of Cyril. "And, it's alright. I mean-- He's alright. I can go and wake him."

Or maybe it would be better to let Bull find him, but Vash isn't sure he can give clear enough directions that Cyril won't wake up on his own and head back.

[samahl]

Bull glares at Vash for a moment, but then he nods. He seems frustrated, but gives in for now.

"Send him back when you find him."

[goldenglasses]

Even with his eyes cast down, unable to look anyone in the eyes still, Vash can feel Bull's glare. He knows he deserves it. "Yes, I will." This is his fault. He should have gone after Cyril last night. If he hadn't started to break down last night, Cyril would have been home last night with his 'normal' family.

"I'm sorry." He ends up adding at the end.

[samahl]

Bull makes a kind of irritated sound, but waves him away. He doesn't want to be near Knives, so he heads back for now. He hates the feeling of being near something he knows he can't kill.

Cyril is a ways off, sleeping against a tree. He's curled up with his legs pulled to his chest. His face is smeared with makeup that ran and a little bit of dirt.

[goldenglasses]

Vash considers bringing the children, but isn't sure what state he'll find Cyril in. He asks Knives to watch them once again, but they will fuss and cry a little when their father goes to leave them behind.

He feels guilty, but he tries to put that aside as he gets closer to Cyril. "Cyril?" He calls out. Trying to avoid scaring the other man too much.

[samahl]

Cyril wakes and groans. He runs his face and looks around, blinking in surprise at finding himself outside. "Hn?"

[goldenglasses]

"I think you fell asleep out here." Vash tries to keep his voice light. Giving Cyril a smile, but Cyril will know it's fake. "Sorry to wake you, but Bull is worried."

[samahl]

"Oh..." Cyril blinks. For a moment, some of his agony and deep-rooted depression show on his face, but he pushes it away and takes a deep breath.

"I should get up then. Go reassure him. He's probably freaking out a little considering the last time he lost track of me..."

He has to push aside whatever he's feeling to reassure someone else. Again. He forces himself to get up by bracing himself against the tree.

[goldenglasses]

"Yeah." Vash simply agrees quietly. Knowing what happened then too. He moves to offer Cyril a hand getting up if he'll accept it.

"Did you... get tired while star gazing?" He tentatively asks. Unsure if he has any right to pry too much into Cyril's feelings right now. After how much of his own feelings he tries to keep to himself.